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Manuel Zambrano @ManuelTacoface

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who am i again?

Posted by ManuelTacoface - July 13th, 2016

Hey NG,

It's been a while, hasn't it? Let me explain myself. Long story short: lost a few friends, been somewhat lonely, overthinking things that probably don't matter and life has just been somewhat aimless lately. I don't know where I'm going or why I do the things I do, but if there's one thing I've always been sure about is my art. Art has always been there for me and is the only thing that makes any sense anymore. But even that loses it's meaning every once in a while.

I don't know why my mind is naturally gravitated towards the glass half empty bullshit. It's like I purposely find things to be sad about. Maybe I'm just tired of life being so stagnant, so my mind just naturally gets attached to anything it comes across to escape. Some people see this, the bore of suburban life, as an excuse for some crazy teenage rebellion phase, but I apparently see it as an excuse for self-harm. Not physically, but emotionally. Meaning I'm no better than those who cut themselves. But at the very least, I'm self-aware. I'm not depressed. I'm not starving. Nobody has died. I still care and have hope. I'll be fine. 

Now before you deem me as the Tumblr-esque feminazi being braggadocious about their self-diagnosed "issues", this post wasn't about me seeking attention, but rather justification for my absence and more importantly, this art piece I just released. I kind of wanted to tackle my bullshit with a light-hearted/fun artistic approach. Now I know I usually do digital illustrations, but this time I wanted to be a bit more experimental. It's time I change things up, don't you think? Regardless, it's just great to be back!

Hope you like it!

- Manuel


TLDR; emotions are dumb. plz check out my art.



Comments (8)

I hope I'm not one of those NG friends you've lost. It sucks, I know... While it's good to see you back, I commiserate.

thanks for the honest words, ann. if anything, I'm the shitty friend for not talking for months on end lol. i just needed some time to organize my thoughts is all. will talk soon hopefully. once again, thanks!

The glass is always refillable man, its to see you back! :)

I mean regardless, it's still just a glass of water lol. It's a dumb analogy now that I think about it, but you get the gist. Thanks for the support man, appreciate it!

Keep your head up man. Your experience sounds awfully similiar to something Ive been going through recently as well. Ive been able to pull myself out of it slowly but surely and it sounds like youre on the right track too <3

Glad to see I'm not alone on this. I hope you found some encouragement through my words as I did with yours. Although I gotta admit, I really do hate my brain sometimes. I should go to the store and get my brain replaced. Pretty sure the warrant hasn't expired on it yet. Wanna trade? lol.

It is strange that we feel alone in a world populated by millions of people. Or not?

Don't worry Man. I know how you feel... I don't have much friends in my Current location (Have only 3 friends i can relate to....Thats all) I am lonely pretty much all the time...All i really do now and then is think about music and pixel art...Its what i think of all the time...

Sorry about whats happening... There are a lot of people like you so You are not alone!

It's funny you said that cause I caught myself saying I felt broken a lot.

Things are good now. I did some relaxing, got my head right. I'm so grateful. Bliss is one of our fundamental virtues so it's there, we just got to reach for it sometimes.

Nice and thoughtful work! Keep it up!

I just found your page and I really like this post because I too relate. It also made me feel things and I like to feel things.